I honestly can't believe this is happening. With everything
that has happened to me and my family this week, I just can't
believe this is real. Almost right out of nowhere, my
grandfather passed away today. It began a few days after
Christmas. He had fallen and broken his hip, I believe I
talked about this a few days ago. They surgically healed it,
then sent him home with no rehabilitation, because my
grandfather refused it. On Saturday, yesterday, he began
having trouble breathing. Turns out, all the stress from
the previous issue was too much for his heart and he wasn't
getting enough oxygen. That was Saturday. Sunday morning,
he was rushed to the ICU of the hospital he was staying in
after having worsening breathing issues. It was then, that his
heart stopped the first time for 10 minutes. About an hour
after being stabilized his heart stopped again. This time he went
15 minutes without oxygen before being revived again. However,
if your brain goes a total of 25 minutes without oxygen, you would
most certainly be pronounced brain dead. That is what happened this
afternoon. At this point, he was only being kept alive by
machines. He was completely brain dead. At 3:35 PM EST,
Sunday January 12, 2014 he was declared dead at the age of 80,
after being removed from the machines that were
only preventing the inevitable.
I feel for the past 10 days I've been trapped in a never
ending nightmare. First Great Aunt Nina, then Timmy's
health issues (still ongoing), and now this. I've hit my
breaking point. I've probably come off as a whiny brat all
day to people on twitter and all of my friends but I don't
know what to do anymore. If you get anything from all of this,
value your life and others. Things can change at any second, and
just keep going, as I learned this week.
Timmy's appointment is tomorrow. It could go 1 of 3 ways,
they fix him (unlikely but I hope this happens), they tell us
there is nothing they can do and we can take him home to live the
rest of his days, or they can put him down. It's not over yet.
How can this hell not be over yet?!
I'll talk more about memories with my grandfather in coming days, right now
I just can't. I'm still in partial shock. And I really just can't. I feel sick right now.
I just need to stop writing this for today... I'm sorry.
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